Vultures
The vultures are out
Circling round
Like mobsters
Wings like tommy guns
They’re waiting
To put a bullet
In my back
And when I’m down
The sound
Of flesh tearing
Away from bone
Thrown
In the night air
Crimson hair
Stolen thoughts
Ingested
It’s been suggested
That they thought
I ought
To cease breathing
To desist dreaming
The mist freezing
The night’s seizing
And it’s too late
For fate
Or circumstance
To change hands
I’m done
The sum
Of all my parts
Is their dark art
It’s their trophy
Don’t hold me
I’m done
I’m screaming now
But there’s now sound
Silent shout
And the moon has turned red
No
They come
And they go
Everything in between
Is a mystery
To them and to me
They don’t know
My sour soul
I don’t know
They like to hold
Onto
The idea that
I’m some Cassanova
Who’ll wander over
Sweep em up
Carry em off
Sunset movie
But it ain’t me
No
Tennis
Lips that could
Wrap around the sun
And put it out
Like wet thumb
And index finger
My gaze lingers
On things you say
On hips that sway
Like reeds
On a river bed
My desire
The breeze
Eyes that cut
Through the bullshit
Down to it
Razor sharp hit
After hit
After hit
Pounding away
At everything
I expect of you
The very definition
Of unreadable
Assured self
Bordering on
Being
Scarily so
Intimidation of my senses
But
I fucking love it
I idly dream
Of what lay beneath
That new skirt
As every flirt
Gets batted back
Tennis ball love
The silence the net
This place the court
It’s game
Then it’s set
But there’s room for some more
Deuce
We’re stuck
Locked horn
As I fawn
The till light
Pointing you out
As if I need reminding
Of your presence
But I am nothing to you
But the joker in the pack
Some Christmas cracker trivia
A newspaper comic strip
A temporary bus stop
But at least you smile
In my general direction
Wine
Glass of wine
Cigarette
Slower now
No regrets
No false hope
To forget
Just stark realisations
Star constellations
Unreachable
Intangible
Life like a spaceship
Built to try and get there
Dreams like exhaust fumes
Hyperdrive sleeps
Advancing the years
Hoping that
In the blackness
Somewhere in the void
Fucking floating
Unsure
Unsafe
Unknown
But craving purpose
Somewhere to land
In the end
Some form of communication
Radio love
Empty glass of wine
Cigarette
Where am I now?
I forget
Old
The wall stares back
As I sit
A mouth full of regrets
The ticking clock
Like someone’s knock
On my skull
Time enters
And I’m all too aware of it
How it wants to age me
Make me ill
Force me to reflect
Put pressure on
My decisions
Fuck you Time
Judging me
All linear
I’m just an adjective
You’re just a narrative
A perspective
Now I’m closer to death
Than I am to birth
What worth
Can I throw back
In Time’s face?
A shitty house
No kids
No wife
A bunch of early 30’s dreams
That went up in smoke
The embers of youth
I got this seat
And so I sit
To slowly unravel
The clock still ticks
Like a judge’s gavel
And I wait…
Old
Mainframe
How to fight back
How to understand
When the links
Are severed
The mechanisation
Of young minds
Index fingers
Where books used to be
Tap, tap, tapping
On glass screens
What am I
If not a screen?
A carer?
A counsellor?
Information
Seen but unlearned
Youtube rockstars
Disappearing catchphrases
If it’s not trending
It doesn’t exist
How to fight back
Offer spoken word
Eye contact
A world behind a screen
Life skills
Like how to hold a conversation
Without a hashtag at the end of it
Like how to take a picture
Where the camera isn’t aimed at yourself
Or
The machines will win
And I will stand
Unseen & unheard
As a thousand young souls
Are lost in the mainframe
Box
If I was the star
Low budget
Low morals
Black & white fever
Lump in throat
A naked ghost
Explain
Or drain
The soul through my eyes
So I can see
Myself clearly
On screen
Close up
Cut away
You’re not there
Where you’re supposed to be
In the box
I put you in
What If
What if we met
Beneath the statue of Neptune
All butterflies
And lack of 3G
Is that her?
That could be him…
First impressions
Second guessings
What if we drank
Talked movies
No more bars
Save the Irish bar
Good old Irish bar
Tequila
Rum
Crazy Mexicans
What if we lay
Staring at Ill Duomo
Then at the stars
Then at each other
Lucky wine
Warm wine
Wind down
Have I never
I lost
Then we both won
Passion beneath
Firenze skies
A teacher
A unicorn
We were actors
In our own scene
Directed by fate
Filmed by only our memories
What if
This
Actually happened
Heavy
Heavy Head
Like lead
Weights
Pulling on my beard
It’s weird
Usually
I’d run from the feeling
Here
I embrace it
Like an old friend
The annoying one
From school
Who knew me
Better than I knew myself
Heavy air
Supliments
Dragging
Pulling on my good mood
Arresting my smile
Short breath
Between teeth
Heavy salad
My hands shake
Might have to
Call it
A night
At
Ten to one
But no
Go see Dave
Hang
Stumble
Breakout
A smile
Lift
Push
Fight
Deep sighs
And on
Yours
Every street
A whirlwind
Every sunset
An emotion
Every building
An etching
Every feeling
A tide
Every footstep
Adventure
Every hot sleep
A pleasure
Every meal
Salvation
Every feel
Elation
Every time
My hat’s on
Every inch
A question
Every thought
A landscape
Every walk
An escape
Every word
Is pointless
Every try
Is fruitless
Every time
That I strive
Every rhyme
That I’ll try
Every tear
Will spring forth
For ever more
I am yours
Riot
Trusting yourself
To man
And machine
Fearing the weight
Distrust in gravity
At least
They’ll know
The last song I heard
The last words I wrote
The last message I sent
Riot in my head
Policed by
Confinement
Premium space
A split pain
Bothers
And yet
Eight more days
Seven more nights
Demons are coming
Disturbing, don’t
Let them carry
Leave them
Thirty thousand feet
Up
Shut
Them down
Like a powerstation
Decommission them
For they hold no weight
But to show you
What love can be
Riot in my soul
Policed by
Refinement
Premium grace
Contrast
The contrast
Astounds
All hussle
Dirt
Knawing, sawing sounds
Leaky air conditioner
Loud locals
All beauty
In one place
Like a cornerstone
Like a mecca
All drawn
To it
Like zombies
Passing between
Concrete blocks
Gutter streets
Graffiti greets
The warmth
Is there
But the heart
Is not
And my feet
Can’t leave
My castle on the hill
Like an old king
Gone mad
Residing
In the four walls
Of his fear
The contrast
Remarkable
All bussle
Filth
Angry engine sounds
Juxtaposed with Jazz
View
View
Of an ancient time
A city
In ruins
In turmoil
And yet
When you rise above
The mire
You see
It’s true beauty
Fireworks
In the distance
Thousands
Striving
For existence
The rich up high
The poor below
As it always was
Gods and men
Borrow
Lend
But when
All is said & done
Numbers mean jack
In the face
Of ancient beauty
Fierce humility
A panorama of truth
Moon shines
Sun dies
This place
Alive
My cocktail
Arrives
So I stop over thinking
And start over drinking
Time
Say
Every cliché
To make the space
Disappear
Empty
Front face
Turn about
To see you there
Only compensation
Same boat
Two crossed wires
The fall out
So high
There is no ground in sight
There is no altitude
No definition
Only time
Passing
But the day
Won’t wait for us
At our worst
Lowest ebb
And yet
Smiles detract
From the obvious
Laughter traps
Impervious
The candle
Flickers
The only remnant
Of the night
So high
We’re drowning in the light
There is no Earth
No destination
Time
Air
I feel like
The air
Has been sucked out
Of me
My body
A vacuum
Who knew
That you
Were oxygen
All I hear
Is the fan
Spinning in irony
Laughing at my state
Light shining through
The blinds
Shadows
Making me a prisoner
Of my own mood
Making me pathetic
Drowning in pity
Like air
Is the only thing
That can make
Me smile
There’s more to life
Than that
But I can’t see that now
Just sit
Deflating
Staring at the space
Where the picture hung
In it’s place
A vision
Of a vicious smile
That is
My last breath
Station
Some look lost
Some walk with purpose
Some look like they’re on a catwalk
Some cry
Some struggle with weight
Physical & not
Some seem important
Some look like they’re going nowhere
Some rush
Darting like rats
Sweating like pigs
Some drown in their own self-importance
Some smile to themselves
Some don’t look up
Some hold hope
That by coming here
They’ll get somewhere
The station
Sleep
If I can’t sleep
Should I wake you?
From your dreams about me
Holding you
In the bed I can’t sleep in
Or should I just sit
On the sofa
That we sat on
Just hours ago
Before you won the race
For unconscious thought
Tomb-like state
Body shut down
You don’t hear the sounds
That I focus on
Like the fox outside
Mischievous & sly
Or your breath mistimed
Or my own deep sighs
If I can’t sleep
I won’t wake you
I won’t hate you
I’ll just lie
Hand
It’s like a coffee stain
Of sadness
On a table
Or
The moon
Gin
In suspended reality
Ultimate satisfaction
Content discomfort
A darkness drifting
Leaving the void
Breathing the voice
From within
No sin
Just gin
And laughter
Drowning in smiles
So many miles
From home
Or what home is for now
A microcosm
In the soundscape of my dreams
So much more to do
So so much
Ride
Whatever space
You are in right now
I wish I could tell you
That I’m sorry
I’m sorry I let my picture of you
Deteriorate
If I’d spoken up
I could have looked after it
Stopped it fraying at the edges
Kept it hanging on the wall
But
I’m not sure if I ever wanted to fix it
The silence showed this
I never understood
How you said one thing
But did another
The manifestation
Of this process
Resulting
In my frustration & disdain
And ultimately pain
For us
One based on guilt
One in shock
I hid in that room
Hating myself
Hating your lack of effort
Hating that I’d have to
Start again
I thought I’d ride this love
Til my last breath
But monotony
Killed it
Will it always?
I think about this now
Every single day
Just as I think of you
Every single second
Wondering if you’re OK
If you’re scared
If you’ve kept your humour
Or closed back up
As when we first met
I still cry
Because we lost each other
Somewhere on the ride
But I need you to know
That I’m sorry
For all the bad things I made you feel
And for not
Being brave enough to save us
I am a little obsessed with you right now! Your poetry makes me very happy, because it’s flooded with cut-throat sensitivity and velocity and references, it’s non-stop and it echoes your influences constantly – which are my influences too, and they are old-school.And that is a breath of fresh air in this day and age. You know what I mean? Congrats. I’m a poet too, kinda sorta artist living in Brazil and I write a lot of letters. That’s why I wondered about yours (@lycaart) 🙂 All the greatest writers kept them. Keep up the good work…
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Wow Natalie, you dunno how much it means to get such kind words from a fellow artist. I definitely know what you mean about the breath of fresh air thing…I guess I do just write what I know and also I NEVER write for the sake of it, always only if I have something worth saying/ putting down/ getting off my chest. You’ve literally made my day (and it’s only 8.51am here!), a million thank yous!!! ps your artwork is DOPE
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